Getting sober is tough, staying sober is harder still. I was a troubled kid and as soon as I hit twelve, I started getting stoned and drinking, it made me feel less bad about existing. I was taking everything else I could get my hands on by the time I was fifteen. The problem is, as soon as you can't be high, the depression, anxiety and dread all come back in, tenfold. Eventually my mental and physical health couldn't take it anymore and I had to stop or die. I went from bein